(P.S… Check out my latest VLOG of my trip up to Northern BC!)
I’m finding it a little bit hard to start this post, and it’s because I expected to be a lot more excited to write about my week shooting in BC. It was a good experience, but as we all know – things don’t always work out the way you expect them to. This post is a bit longer than usual, so grab some popcorn and settle in 😉
I flew out on Saturday to Vancouver, and stayed with my friends for a couple days. On Monday I met up with the production team plus the two other models for lunch, before catching a sea-plane from Vancouver up to the TYAX resort.
The best part about this trip was flying on the sea-plane – it is such a unique and awesome experience. I have no problems when it comes to flying, but be warned that if you ever fly on one of these little guys, you will experience some serious turbulence. It’s not awful, but it kind of messes with your stomach. However, all those sickly feelings quickly vanished after looking out the window and seeing the most BEAUTIFUL views.
These little planes flew us right in between the mountains, so close that you wouldn’t believe. I saw crystal clear green lakes, deep blue lakes, waterfalls, mountain goats, and rivers. Places that have never and will never be touched by humans. Canada is a seriously dazzling country.
We landed at the TYAX resort (literally, docked the plane right beside the entrance) and everyone met up for dinner. Hair and make-up would start at 6:30 am on Tuesday, and from there we would fly to an even more remote location to shoot.
I shot a couple outfits on Tuesday morning, and then had the rest of the day off. The other two models flew to a different location so they could get some photos on the seaplane and with a super crystal blue lake. The next day (Wednesday) was supposed to be a travel day for us, and Thursday we were going to be shooting running scenes (as opposed to Tuesday, which were more lifestyle photos and outfits)
Since everything was so touch and go, a lot of schedules got moved around and changed, and we ended up shooting that night once we arrived in Squamish. Unfortunately I wasn’t a part of that shot, so instead I went for a run and then met up with my agent for dinner.
Although it’s hard to fully explain, and I fear coming off as petty, I was feeling a bit down by Wednesday evening. Overall I had only been in two of the shots on Tuesday, and not used at all on Wednesday. I talked to Adam about it who reminded me how lucky I should feel to be there and even if I wasn’t in the photos, I still got chosen over many other models. Also – I still had Thursday to look forward to, where all the shots would be fitness/running oriented.
Fast forward to Thursday morning, I’m up by 7:30 and already in a better mood than the night before. I decide that i’m going to go for a run before breakfast, since hair and makeup didn’t start till 11:30. I quickly scan my emails and see one from my agent telling me to call her when I woke up.
I phone her, and listen sadly as she tells me that they wouldn’t be shooting me that day. At all. They had gone through many of the shots and the outfits they needed the night before, and today would be a free day for me. I had barely spoken 5 words to the production team all week, and now everything was just going to go on ahead without me. Again.
It was a very disappointing and frustrating feeling – over the years I’ve shot with some big, amazing brands, and never once have I felt overlooked like this. I’m usually the one staying longer, the one in the forefront of the photo, even the one that comes up with the pose or workout. I had been looking forward to this shoot for so long, and it ended so abruptly for me.
Growing up, my biggest aspiration was to become a model. I went through so many bad experiences with money-minded, self interested agents, but I kept trying again and again and again. I’m at least 3 inches shorter than most models and have a thicker lower body, so to make up for that, I work my butt off to maintain a solid physique all year. I sacrifice other opportunities for jobs, use my vacation days at work to be at a shoot, and I’m up at the crack of dawn to make call-time. I’ve never had it easy, which is why being successful in this career means so much to me.
I decided that rather than feeling sorry for myself and moping around, I would change my flight and go home a day early. I had no interest in hanging around for the third day in a row, and just wanted to be back in Toronto with Adam.
As disappointed as I was, I tried to see the silver lining in the situation, and look at it as practically as possible:
As my agent had said, these huge shoots are always touch and go – things change in the blink of an eye. They had never met any of the models, didn’t know how the clothes would fit them, and had never seen the shoot location until the day of. The lighting and the weather all played a part in how the week panned out.
I got to experience flying on a seaplane, jumping in a clear blue lake, staying up in Northern BC, and visiting places that I would probably never experience otherwise
I was chosen over several other models, and at the end of the day, that’s a huge win in itself
If anything, this event left me more humbled, gracious, and grounded. And it made me come to terms with the fact that when it comes to the modelling world, everybody is replaceable.
OMG… Are you still with me?
This post took me a few days to complete, so my mood has changed dramatically from the first sentence I wrote. Like I mentioned – I hope to not come off petty or ungrateful in anyway. If given the choice, I would choose to do this again. Situations or events may not work out the way you want it to, but what is important is to see the silver lining, and hopefully become a better person from the way you respond to it.
That is all.